How I feel now
05.22.06 (5:27 pm) [edit]She lays there crying and wondering why she can’t be with the one she really loves.It kills her everytime she thinks about the very long distance between them.Knowing that,that’s the reason they’re not together anymore.Everyday she wishes she could be with him.But now theres no need for that wish.So he has now broken her heart.She’s so lost and confused right now.She still can’t believe this actually happened to her.She wonders why they’re so far away from eachother when it feels so right to be with him,she knows and feels that he’s the one but why can’t they be together? Its so hard for her,He doesn’t even know the pain she’s going through.She keeps trying her best to be happy,but nothing is working,its also hard trying to hide your pain.Nobody knows what she’s going through,Not even him.Its very hard to do this for him,she has the urge to tell him “I hate you!”but deep down inside she knows that’s not true.She loves him so much and she thought he felt the same way about her,for awhile it did feel like he loved her as much as she loved him,but sadly it no longer feels that way.It sucks to hear him say “We’re just friends”.She can’t stand it anymore,sometimes it gets to her so bad that she wants to kill herself.She can’t stand to look at couples that are so happy together,knowing that that’ll never happen with her and him.She promised him that she wouldn’t hurt herself anymore,but since he hurt her,she just feels that it doesn’t matter anymore,so she broke it.She asked herself “Why would it matter?He’s already hurt me…It doesn’t matter anymore